If you've read my other story, "My Brother's Demon" You'll remember Ray. But if you haven't I'll save you the issue of going to read it. Ray was an evil... Thing that resides in my home, mainly my littlest brothers room. Once we did a seance and summoned it. That was one of the worst things I have ever done. Now the thing doesn't seem to want to leave me alone. My brothers aren't here every day so I'm the only one faced with it constantly.
A lot of the time, I just feel watched. True there have been other things that watch me, but it's just me being paranoid. This is totally different, I get chills and I just don't feel like moving, and I get really sick to my stomach. And I'm generally an extremely talkative person, but when it's around I go silent, and snippy. I bite my brothers head off even if I assume he's insulting me, which is never.
Let me tell you the layout of the house real fast. You come in the front door and there is a step down, you can go left into my mom's mini living room, straight into the family room or right into the hallway.
The mini living room and the family room both go in like a circle into the dining room and the kitchen, it's all basically open, if you go to the hallway the first room you see is Darian's to the left, my parents and down further mine and Devon's right across from one another, his is a little further down, a few inches maybe. But at night when I go out to get water from the garage I'll come back and I'll always see Ray, standing at the end of the hallway.
He stands there just looking at me, I see him and I think "serial killer". He has cold dark eyes and slicked back longish hair, maybe like 6ft or so, he's always smirking like "I'm going to get you" look. He has broad shoulders and he has stubble along his jaw line. He looks so ice cold and untouchable. I don't look at him, I pass by him, inches from him and get that falling feeling in my stomach. The whole left side of my body goes numb and stings. And I finally close my door and lock it, because it just makes me feel safe.
I used to feel safe in my room, but lately I get the feeling of being watched in here too. But I'm not so much scared in here, it's like a feeling of being watched from a window. It really creeps me out.
And when I'm in my living room, I get the watched feeling, and when I'm in my mom's little area, and the kitchen, I think it maybe just the fact it's an open space, but there are cold spots in my house, one day me and my brother are going to take the digital camera and take pictures to see if there is anything there. But I'm sort of scared to see what there may be. But besides that, the area that you come into the house is really creepy for some reason and I always see something there.
The only place I really don't feel watched is in the garage. But that may just be because it's really warm and bright. And something that I found really strange is... A few weeks ago a big butterfly was dead in my garage, before the butterflies were really out. We picked it up and threw it away, the next day there was a huge moth in the same place. I don't know, I just thought it was weird.
I want to do something, but I'm afraid if it doesn't work, he'll do more than just watch me. I think if I tick him off too bad, he'll decide to actually do something. And I wouldn't be able to do anything really religious, because my parents are atheist, I'm wiccan myself. I don't have the ability to get anything like, sage for instance. I've lost the privilege of candles and incense due to the itty bitty problem that I'm a pyro... so my hands are sort of tied here.
What do I do? Just live with it, and hope it doesn't escalate?
Anything will be helpful at this point.
Thanks.
Honestly BaD, I believe you're just fine with being a Wiccan/Pagan and you'll be okay as long as you focus on your inner strength and reinforce it, my dear. I have been a part of all manners of different religions and not one has ever had more impact than the other upon spirits, so I don't think that there are religious-coded spirits you have to do only certain rituals with to get rid of. Do not let anyone tell you that you must believe in God, Allah, etc. To get rid of something like that. Your pagan beliefs are yours to keep and evicting a spirit has nothing to do with reciting the word of Allah. Obviously you've already tried the religious approach by having your house blessed and that didn't work.
I would say try following the other suggestions here, such as the use of sage and jasmine essential oils in your bath water or as a bedroom spray so that the scent is always in your room. Also having a bit of dried flowers or a cotton ball placed in a container with a few sprinkles of sage or jasmine essential oil will keep the scent in your room like potpourri, plus it smells great!
Best of luck to you hon'.:)