This is my fist post and I am quite excited. I have had this problem for as long as I can remember and MAYBE some of you can help me out with it. I keep experiencing these strange whispers, strange because they are calling my name. I would think it is my subconscious mind playing tricks but last night something different occurred and it really scared me.
As I prepared to go to sleep, just as I linger on the brink of being asleep and being awake I hear my name being called. It has happened to me a countless number of times. Every time I experience this I become extremely tired. I am to afraid to go to sleep because I feel that whatever is calling my name will take over me. It never fails that although I am not asleep, I know this because I can look at the clock and see the time pass, I can't move.
I can't call out to anyone to help me and it feels as if I am locked in my mind. The drowsiness is so heavy and complete. I feel as if it drains all of the energy I have in me to stay awake.
Last night when this happened I thought it was just my sister talking in her sleep, because it hasn't happened to me anywhere except at my mom's house (until last night), but as soon as I had that thought, the name changed and it started saying my sister's name. It was so strange because it was like it could hear what I was thinking, and when I thought "Oh No not this", it's like I could feel its pleasure, actually feeding off of my fear. I don't know what it is but it feels really dark and evil and the only thing that seems to release me from it is calling on the name of Jesus.
Prayer doesn't even release me from it.
Crazy to say the least.
Ever since I have tried to let this state of mind go and see where it ends... Very rarely have I had a negative experience leading from this state but one has to get passed the initial terror (it gets easier over time). I have read a dozen theories and nothing quite seems to hold much weight as to what is actually occuring. I even visited a neurologist and a dream expert. Both did not seem to wish to talk about it and pretty much just shrugged their shoulders for I had no abnormalities on my scans and it was not impacting my life nagatively so they were extremely reserved on how to answer me. Thus I have had to find my own answers.
To answer where the terror comes from I have had suspicions that IF the out of body experiences are as real as they seem then perhaps the soul is really leaving the body and the terror is the bodies natural reaction to what it might think is death... Who knows, it's just a guess and seems plausible enough for me. However considering we are talking about a state of mind that occurs usually at the end or at the beginning of sleep ANYTHING is possible for the mind can create whatever you want to believe and unless you have proof such as witnessing an event outside your body and retained memory of it then be careful to catagorize is as anything but a dream (including the feelings of terror and demons and such) no matter how consious and vigilant.
Interestingly enough during these states I have also heard my name called many many times and I certainly do not buy into peoples superstition that answering it would somehow make me ill or die or cause some terrible event. The voice is likely generated by our own brain and if perhaps it is external consider why a "spirit" or being would be calling you. A trick? Not likely... I do not believe in demons and hags and all that (or try not to anyways...), but if they truely exist I would say that humans do far more damage to ourselves than they could ever hope to by simply believing in all the crap others fill us with. As far as the calling of my name I ALWAYS answer and try to get more information... To no avail but I'm not going to give up. Oh and I have not gotten sick from it nor have I died yet:)
Most often though I have had a hand take mine and lead me though I have nearly zero visuals but I am fully conscious and aware. Sometimes it is a fairly rough males hand even with a very thick leather like glove to most commonly a soft smaller females hand.
A dream? Reality? A little of both? I try to stay observant and I am careful to make a full judgement as to what all this is for at times I feel like it is very real trying to tell me something. Other times I believe that it is all non-sense with no evidence of anything but a dream... Except the occasional vision... But that is a whole different story.