This is all just speculation, I'm not sure if these are ghosts or what. I'm not a religious guy (used to be into Christianity, but religion is no way for me to live my life at the moment) and I'm a lusty 22 year old Black American male (I guess a part of me follows the stereotype). Anyway, I've always had a thing for Japanese girls. I've been to Japan a few times, and even lived there for 6 months two years back. That might have to do a bit with this.
Well, when I was in Japan I didn't have any spiritual encounters at all, even though I was staying in Hiroshima. However, ever since I was about 5 years old, I have had dreams of being romantically involved with a particular Japanese woman. This same woman is ever-present in many of my dreams, but she has never, e-e-e-ever spoken.
Now,on to ghosts.
When I was young, I heard voices sometimes in the night. They'd say things like "believe" and things of that nature as if they were fighting for control of my spirit. Of course, at my current age, I'd reject them if they were, since I wish to follow my own path. I've also had horrible feelings of being held down in my sleep, and waking up not being able to move. This hasn't happened to me in a long time except for once last month, when I was pinned down for what felt like five minutes. I tried yelling out, but couldn't. There was nothing sexual about it at all though. What has me wondering if it's a succubus though is my constant dreams with the SAME Japanese woman.
I think if it is a succubus, that'd be kind of cool.
Sometimes when I lie too still, without changing position I start to feel heavy, like I'm made of stone. It's pretty weird but doesn't happen a lot. I think last night I was having trouble sleeping because I was thinking about a scary movie I watched (Skeleton Key). I should know by now to stay away from scary movies... 🤔
Sometimes if I go to sleep thinking about someone I talked to, I hear their voice saying something to me, like it's right inside my ear. It's usually when I'm half asleep, too.
I don't know if that really helped, I guess I just wanted to talk about my sleep disorder experiences. Those sleep disorders have probably happened to more people than I think; it seems they're pretty common sometimes.