I was either 19 or 20 years old the first time this happened to me. I was living at my Mom's house with my baby and had just gone to sleep. My baby and I shared a room so my bed was against the wall opposite the door and my child's crib was adjacent to my bed (making like an L shape if that makes sense). I had just gone to bed and I started to feel this presence coming towards me. The only way that I can describe it is immense evil. It was like I could feel it coming closer and closer to me. When I felt it right in front of my face I knew I had to open my eyes. It literally felt like my head was going to blow off and I had to open my eyes and make it go away from me and my child. (I know I sound really dramatic but that's really how it felt) I opened my eyes and there was nothing there. Everything stopped. All feelings and senses of anything evil or negative were just gone. Right away I got up and got my daughter from her crib and took her into bed with me. I didn't feel comfortable having her sleep there away from me. About a year passed and nothing like that happening again so I figured it was just nothing and forgot all about it.
Then one night I was lying in bed going to sleep (in my Dad's house now, we moved there) and I felt something touching me. I started fantasizing and having this sexual dream but the whole time I could feel someone's hands on me touching me as if they were right in front of me. I opened my eyes and everything stopped and there was nothing there. I checked to see where my hands were, thinking it was me doing it without realizing but it wasn't. My hands were nowhere near that area. So a bit of time passed (not much and I don't know how much at all so maybe a few days, maybe a week?) and the same thing happened. But this time I just let it happen thinking I was just really good at daydreaming (even though I KNOW I am not asleep) and then I climaxed and it was awesome and I "woke myself up" or whatever you want to call it and tried to sleep properly. This went on for a few weeks to a couple of months... Maybe longer (it was a couple of years ago so my timing may be off) or maybe shorter. It isn't every day but it is often enough. And I am quite happy with this. But then one night something changed.
While I was "falling into it" as I used to call it, I heard something else in my ear. It was in my right ear. There was something trying to occupy me and keep me "busy" and focused on the sexual stuff but this time in my left ear I heard someone talking. A woman's voice and she was saying something along the lines of "that's it, keep going, we've almost got her". I got really scared and tried to open my eyes and stop what was happening. Instead of being able to sit up though I was completely unable to move and everything went from a good feeling to a violent and controlling feeling. I kept seeing images of faces and things and I didn't know what they are and I couldn't get away from them. Finally I opened my eyes and sat up and it stopped.
The next night, the same thing happened only as I started to fall into it, I tried to stop myself right away because I was scared. There wasn't the nice pleasure anymore but again I felt the anger and violence. And again it took everything in me to open my eyes and sit up.
This went on and on for a couple of weeks. After a while it would sometimes let me think that I was awake. Like, I would feel all of the pressure that was on me come off and I would sit up and feel better only to feel like someone dropped something on me again and I am back on the bed unable to move. The whole time though I sensed this anger and evil.
Another time I thought I had fallen off of my bed to get away from it but it turned out I was still on it. It's like it was playing with me and getting some sick pleasure from it. I tried falling asleep in front of the television thinking that maybe it's in my head and I am thinking about it so much it is me doing this to myself but it happened there too. I got together with my partner and this would still happen. I would feel it coming and I was falling into it but I couldn't always get away. I would hear myself screaming to her and flailing around the bed but she didn't hear me. When I finally did regain control I would ask my partner why she didn't wake me and she would tell me that I wasn't moving at all or making any noise.
Another time I had a vision that I pulled the blankets over my head to hide from them and looked up to see their fingers wrapped around the top of the blanket to pull it down. I used every ounce of strength that I had to kick my legs to wake up my partner and regain control of myself but again, I wasn't moving at all. The next day though my legs were so sore it felt like I had run a marathon.
After thinking about all this I think this happened for months and months maybe 6 months or longer. It was hell. I was terrified to go to sleep. I got more and more depressed and just couldn't get out of it.
One day I told a woman at the place of my work about everything that was happening to me. She had mentioned that lately when I would walk into a room it was like I was sucking the energy out of it and I was all negativity and she would get really bad vibes, which was weird because she loves my energy but felt like there was something else going on. It was so strange.
I used to feel like I had a really strong relationship with God but for a few years it was strained. Just before this had started happening I was becoming closer to God spiritually and was trying to become a more spiritual person. My friend suggested that I ask my guides/guardian angels to help me and surround me with their love and support. She also suggested I start praying again (I used to pray every day but then stopped for a while). I didn't think that it would work at all. But that night when I got home I prayed and I asked for assistance. That night was the first night that I slept without being under attack. I could sense that there was something sinister near me, but got the distinct feeling that it couldn't touch me or get into my head. After that, for the next few weeks I made sure that I prayed every night.
Every now and then I would forget when I was going to sleep and sure enough, the day I would forget, it or they would come back to me immediately. It was like they were waiting for me to make a mistake and sometimes they got their chance. Still, even after it's been gone for a long time, if I forgot or if I don't ask for that extra protection, I feel it. I don't really know what it is for sure. Has anyone experienced this before?
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