Am I Haunted Or Is It The House?

This is probably going to sound quite vague, I wasn't sure if it counted as psychic or ghostly experiences, I was afraid if I submitted it on the psychic sight they would say it was meant for the ghost sight. Oh well here it goes.

I am agnostic (I think) I have never ever dismissed any beliefs and have always thought that ghosts were possible since I can remember. Not just because I believe in old fairy tales, but because when I was a toddler, I grew up in a 400 year old mining house in a very old mining area of Cornwall and I have a very clear memory of a man with two dogs.

Our house had two stair cases, and I remember coming down the first to go to the loo and there was a man sitting on the staircase with two dogs. Being about 3 or 4 I didn't question his existence, I merely asked him to move but he didn't reply or respond. That's all I remember of that but my parents told me later I kept speaking to imaginary people and dreaming up a man with dogs who "lived" in our house.

Years and years later, at this point I'm about 15, and I'm at my nans partner's house in mevagissey. It's extremely old on a cliff and facing the ocean and it has such a lovely feeling when you come in the door, of warmth and history and happiness. I promise to the furthest extent that this is not made up. Even my startled grandmother and her partner of the time were flummoxed and shocked.

First of all, I couldn't sleep back then. I suffered (and still do sometimes) from insomnia. So I sat downstairs in the lounge chatting to my grandmother's partner and in my head there's a nagging voice repeating the name "Edward over and over". I had no idea where this came from, but I felt compelled to tell this to *John who's eyes widened and asked me why I said this. I replied simply with something like "No idea, I just have to say this name. Edward" it was like a nagging headache and I could see this name so clearly.

John then told me that "Edward" owned the house before him and was a kindly character who loved the place and it was bizarre I should mention his name. I then asked "does he have a black dog?" I had no idea where this came from, it popped out my mouth and at this point *John jumped up saying "he had a black Labrador!" and he showed me where the dog would bite and scratch the door posts and even though he had filled them and painted them, the scratches remained there 50 years after refusing to be removed. I even felt a presence around the house but it didn't bother me.

Between those times, I had random experiences which I believed were paranormal, at my dad's house there were horrid smells, feelings of being watched that all my friends felt and even dad felt. We would see shadows in the hall and feel as if we were being stared at as we went down the stairs. It was awful, nasty and imposing. We would take pictures and little lights would be in the pictures, it was so eerie.

3 years later, (I'm skipping over many little weird happenings I seem to come across over my travels) I part live with my partner of 8 years in a Victorian era detached house in one of the older and more fancy areas of redruth which was one of the main mining towns in Cornwall. The moment I set foot in that house, I knew it was haunted. The feeling was so strong and present, I didn't need the other proof we received to know it! First I said quietly to my partner I felt it was haunted. Again, I had no idea where this came from but I said there were two presences, a good man and a bad man. The bad man was awful, violent, and liked to make himself known. Sure enough, most nights we heard the chairs scraping downstairs as if they were being moved. Things vanished and often never re-appeared. We were in fact lodgers in this house and the landlady's baby often cried whenever the presence was around. We heard bangs in the attic which were once servants' quarters and now has nothing there.

Once, my partner who suffers sleepwalking even filmed himself out of curiosity to know what he did played back some tape to hear almighty bangs in our room with no source and odd sounds. The landlady's friend brought over her friend who happened to be a medium and took her to one side and explained that the house was haunted. Everything she said was exactly what I had said detail for detail and when the landlady told me this I was so shocked. Since this event, things have been happening to me that I hate and wish would go away.

I see lights all the time, little flashing ones, not just in the corner of my eye. Whenever there's a presence I start to get migraines and for the last week (since I was told I was right about the ghosts in the landladies house) I have been touched several times! It's as if I was being brushed lightly, some cases poked or prodded. It's awful. It's not muscle spasms or nerves jumping, because it makes me turn and look for the perpetrator it's so real! Things move and bang and I know that there's people that experience a lot of things more serious, but its bugging me because it's as if wherever I go, something's there and I feel like it latches on to me.

I'm at my grandmother's house tonight and what inspired me to write this is I'm asking for advice. I'm in bed and there's an over powering feeling of presence. There was this queer fly in my room that disappeared in thin air before my eyes and didn't fly in the fashion typical of a fly. (If that sounds right) For half an hour he crawled over my bed stead and I tried to shoo him away but he stayed still. He stayed that way for a while until suddenly he opened his wings gracefully and flew in an arch before disappearing. This sounds nuts, I don't know why but there was something so weird and bizarre about the fly. As this was happening there was also a strong presence in the room. So I spoke like a madwoman to myself asking for whatever it was to leave me and as I said that I started to get an almighty migraine.

This is pretty mild compared to everyone else's stuff but I was curious if anyone could tell me whether this is something following me, or that maybe I'm just sensitive to things around me or if I'm totally barmy. If something is around me, (and a clairvoyant said there was) then what can I do to find out if it's malicious or has good intentions.

Sorry for rambling and being so vague, what I really want is advice what to do to tell if this spirit is malicious or if it's not so much "a" spirit as just different happenings. It just seems everywhere I seem to live there's a strong negative presence and other people are picking up on it!

Thank you for taking your time to read this.

Sarah x