Spirits And Us

About four years ago, I read an article on automatic writing. The people involved in the article stated that their automatic writing caused them a lot of grief as Spirits (bad) took over their lives. I pondered the article and being a Christian, who also believes in us being Spiritual beings residing in a natural body, decided that we give credit to bad spirits and not to Spirits who were good, kind people when they lived. I started doing automatic writing and sure enough met up with Spirits who were giving me information about a little girl who disappeared at the time. At this stage it was only writing. I did not see any Spirit people. I took the information to the police, shy at first, but although someone listened to my story nobody followed it up.

I carried on writing, and a friend of mine, (in fact the man I love) sister started writing back. We just had conversations about him and our life together. I have known him for 25 years at this stage. Well, I do not know what happened, but suddenly all the wheels fell off. I started feeling the presence of Spirits and they seemed to want to guide me. I then started hearing their voices. Yes they started speaking to me. Some were kind and others were bothersome. It became bad in the sense that I felt I was involved in a tug of war between Spirits with different belief systems. For some reason I suddenly could not cope and felt I was going crazy with all the talking going on around my head. I gave up my job and moved to my children where I saw the Priest of our church. He did a prayer for me, but nothing changed. I spent my days quietly sitting, just listening and saying my prayers. Suddenly it stopped. All the voices were quiet.

I found a job and carried on with my life as per normal. About 6 months into my new job, (I am a Payroll Administrator) whilst trying to find order in the Companies Petty Cash system, a couple of voices came back, trying to advise me on different systems that might work. I think the presence of these Spirit people, (energy) became too much again. Instead of having a clear head and being able to set up a system it became real hard to concentrate. Then I became ill. Not a new illness, but a previous hernia operation that went wrong. I had to have urgent surgery. Whilst in hospital I started seeing Spirit people. I saw a male doctor who checked on my operation procedure, I saw a female doctor who checked my charts, I had a couple visiting who sat next to my bed, and I saw a patient in a bed where there was no bed next to mine. I then realised that I have always seen the odd Spirit visiting, since I was little. I never took notice of any of them. After this, things went dead quiet again.

I moved back to Durban and took up a Caregiver job to look after an elderly lady who suffered from Alzheimer's. Whilst nursing her, I lie on the couch one afternoon on a break, (at this time I was also busy writing my first book) and fell asleep. I woke (or I think I did) with a horrid pain in my chest. I say I think I woke up because I went for a drink of water and lay down again. I fell asleep and woke up not feeling well. The pain was gone but I had a pressure on my chest and I was feeling dizzy. I went to the clinic to check my blood pressure and it was sky high. The next day I checked it again and it was normal.

I never and did not take any medication. Some other things happened, but the remainder of this experience is that I now hear voices all the time, I see "balls" of Spirit, I see visions of Spirit people (they are not manifesting) I see what I call stars (like pin prick size, and some bigger) silver lights flashing everywhere, indoors and outdoors, high in the sky and all around me. The flash and I often hear "hallo" when I see these lights flashing. Although most of them are silver white I have also seen some in other colours. I see black spirits moving, although I do not see a form; I see white Spirits moving, no form. I believe that a lot of the voices I hear are of Spirit people who are earthbound for some reason Ghosts?

I need a forum for discussion on my experiences as I feel very lonely in this regard. I do not know anyone in South Africa to share this with and to make sense of it all. I refuse to give evil Spirits the power they are seeking, to destroy, and not acknowledging the good people who are now Spirit. In other words "GOD" Am I on the right site?

Kind regards

Marti