I'm not sure, but ever since I was little, in my house, I felt uneasy. Especially in the kitchen, especially when I'm alone. Extremely when I'm in the kitchen alone. I got used to it, but would run as fast as I could up the stairs, scared that something was behind me, and I still do. I was downstairs in the kitchen, making a bagel as a late-night snack. Most of the lights where out. I was alone. I felt it again, stronger. I began looking around, searching for the eyes that I felt watching me. Finally, my bagel finished. I buttered it, and put it in a baggie because I couldn't take the eyes anymore! I ran upstairs as usual. I went into my dark room and sat cris-cross toward the TV, beginning to eat. I felt the feeling of being watched again and looked out of the corner of my eye and saw the black shadow of a little girl standing there. As soon as I saw her she was gone. I got really scared and went to bed.
That entity in the kitchen felt threatening. That was the first time I had ever seen the little girl, but I really felt nothing with her. The next spirit is different.
Sometimes I'm in my room, alone on my computer, like now. I have LOTS of posters on my walls staring at me all the time, but they never made me feel uncomfortable, so I don't think this feeling is them.
Sometimes I feel a gradual presence getting stronger. I know it's a boy. How? I have no idea, but I feel it's a boy, I'm pretty certain it's not a girl. If I could feel age, I know he is a bit older, maybe by 1 or 2 years. Don't ask me what or how this feeling is, I honestly don't know and think it's weird. I usually close my computer and look around. Nothing. Sometimes it's so strong I can feel where it is from a few feet away. I'm sitting on my bed or couch, but I've never felt him sit down. He is ALWAYS standing up. He is ALWAYS in my room. Most of the time, he's as close to me as he can get without sitting. (For example, which ever edge I'm on in the bed, He's as close to me as possible.) He never feels mad or angry, he just feels...okay. I never feel a happiness, or sadness, just an okay feeling. I've never felt him there when I'm angry or sad. Just when I'm okay, he's okay. Maybe sometimes I'm too caught up in my emotion to feel him there. But, anyway, he stares at me, I feel his eyes. I VERY OCCASIONALLY feel a caring feeling. Not like he LOVES me, but like he just cares about my safety. I've never heard him speak to me, I never heard a name, I never felt a cold spot, I never felt a touch. Just a watching and a presence.
I know he is ALWAYS there, I feel him in my room all the time, it's just I've never felt it this strong.
I would love to find out ways to communicate with this spirit in my room, he seems nice.
And, lots of times, I get deja-vue. Maybe 1 or 2 times a day. I rarely remember my dreams, so I would have no idea if any spirits were trying to contact me through dreams or if the deja-vue were coming from dreams.
Also, this is my first story and I really don't know ANYTHING about ghosts. I don't know what past lives are or any of that stuff. I just know the basic stuff like possession. Please don't criticize if I ask a "stupid" question. I'm learning. I'm Christian, but really nothing of any religion offends me.
I don't even know what questions I have, I just need help understanding what's going on.
I would greatly appreciate any comments and opinions/advice anyone would have to offer. I will try to respond as quickly as possible.