Let me start with a little background information before I get to the meat and potatoes of my story: I was raised Catholic and my whole family is extremely Catholic, attending Church every other Sunday. Within the past year or so, I began having certain questions about my faith and have been gradually losing my spirituality.
My grandfather was very ill mentally so I never has a real conversation with him but every time I saw him at family gatherings, I always felt as though we had a special bond. I'm the only male on my dad's side of the family so I'm the only one that can pass down his/my family name. He passed away about 3 years ago and that's when my feelings of being watched at night increased.
I moved into my current house approximately 15 years ago. I've always been afraid of the dark but specifically, I have always been afraid of my room and basement the most. I vividly remember one instance where I had to get something from my room but I didn't want to go my room was dark and I thought there was something waiting/watching me. To this day, I feel as though something is watching me at night in my room and freak out when somebody closes the lights in my basement. I have read about electronic devices giving this feeling which would make sense since my room is the "computer room' of the house but this next part freaks me out.
Shortly after he passed away, I began to see flashes of light that would light up my whole room when I couldn't fall asleep. I would get so scared and thought this was my grandfather telling/forcing me to fall asleep and I would shut my eyes. After a few times of this happening, I decided to tell him "I love you Grandpa" every other night when I went to bed; I didn't have any experiences when I said this but when I stopped, the same thing would happen. I have had numerous dreams of seeing him at my grandparents' house, usually looking very happy to see me.
After about a year or so of this happening, I started watching more "ghost movies" and reading up on ghosts and my confidence in my situation only increased. Shortly after this, I heard my voice called from the basement one morning by a woman which sounded exactly like my mom but I realized it couldn't have been her because I heard her snoring and she doesn't like bothering me when I'm sleeping. When I first told my parents about my experiences they thought I was joking but when I insisted, they took me seriously and my mom had the idea of bringing a priest to my house in order to bless it. I refused this idea since I thought my grandfather was more of a benevolent spirit and holy water wouldn't effect his spirit. My mom also told me that my grandmother (my grandfather's wife) would sometimes see ghosts and my dad had a cousin who saw ghosts.
This week, my curiosity about my experiences rose again and I asked my dad if my grandmother did indeed see ghosts. At first he was hesitant and seemed confused, then he became serious and said no.
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MetalGuru666
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From this additional information, I'd say the negative outweighs the positive and you should get a cleansing/blessing done to help move it on. Even if it is your Grandpa,don't you think he deserves to be at rest? You feel 'terrified' therefore what-ever it is - its gotta go.
Your fear of the dark... Well here's a little tid-bit I used to get rid of my phobia of snakes (I still do not like them, but I don't panic like I use to). And I had it bad - even an unexpected picture of one would scare me! Try being in the dark for say 3 minutes at a time, you can be right next to a light source if you like. Once you can do the 3, increase it to 5. Slowly, very slowly work the time you spend in the dark up. This can take months, and depending on how deeply seated the fear, even longer. But you will be surprised at how empowering conquoring that fear will be.