The Leaning Shadow Man

I've been reading these stories for quite some time now with no intention of ever posting something. I grew up in a Pentecostal household, my grandfather, his father, and subsequently my mother (which is highly abnormal) were and are preachers. My first memory of going to church was of my mother speaking in tongues and singing "I am the lord's soldier".

I have been present during a mans exorcism (not the Catholic exorcism). I'm trying to say I have seen things. But I can't get over how these hauntings are actually scaring people so I'm going to let you in on a little secret. I practice something like witchcraft.

It started in about 2010 when I moved out after high school. I was extremely angry at my mother and I was always very logical about things and at that point I decided that I didn't believe in God so I had to disprove that "Satan" existed as well so I could snuff out the whole idea. So I began searching. I read the necronomicon, the satanic bible, and about 64gb of other books I scoured the Internet for.

I eventually stumbled upon a book called The Book Of the Witchmoon by Michael Ford. It became my favorite book and I showed my roommate who was also interested in the idea of finding a way to disprove God and Satan. We read and joked about the idea for quite a while.

So we were living in a new house, just me and him no distractions. In early 2011 neither of us had jobs and we were living off my student allowance for my scholarship. One day we were sitting around and remembered the book so we looked through it again. We found this ritual in which you construct a black mirror and it is a direct portal to the underworld. When we found all the supplies we needed we made this mirror and on the floor of our house in salt we drew out The sigil of Abraxas. We were looking for answers so it was fitting we try to find this demon specifically.

In order for the ritual to work we had to have the candles and whatever (I think that stuff is completely useless) and also this specific ritual requires a blood sacrifice to open the portal towards the end of the ritual. So after we said all our words and our intent we both took our knives from the kitchen and cut ourselves pretty deep on the left palm. (The left hand is very significant as it is claiming your are not a sheep as it says in the bible.)

We waited and and waited and waited. We did everything right and we did not see anything. We decided we were stupid for believing it would do anything so in our general disregard for everything normal we hung this black mirror directly over our couch.

For the next year this mirror hung over us everyday. It started to feel kind of weird in the house but we aren't the kind of people to be scared of weird feelings. Prior to us doing this my roommate has experienced night terrors his entire life. He would walk into my room in the middle of the night sometimes and I had been used to it. It was only scary when he would start screaming a bloodcurdling yell and decide you should be up at 4am or so. But surprisingly his sleepwalking was doing a lot better after the ritual.

Tonight as I'm typing this that mirror is behind two doors in my art room. I no longer live with him. It's me and my girlfriend now (she doesn't have night terrors). But I'm going to say about 3 months ago I started having weird dreams where I would be eaten by a little girl in my dream. Her head would fall apart like it was made of octopus tentacles and start spewing blood out and then I would wake up. It always felt extremely real.

Then more recently I woke up really late to an extremely dark shadowy man shape leaning on my girlfriend's side of the bed staring at me. Not like leaning like a casual lean. It was more like he was leaning with both hands trying to get over to me. That was probably the most startling one. I don't really get scared because if there is something out there in another realm I've already made reservations for my soul in case of my missing that God was real but that's a completely different story.

I hope you people don't delete this. This is an actual account of my life up until this point. Just trying to get my story out there like everyone else on here.