Please be patient with me as this is my very first post:)
Let me preface with I have always been different. Even at a young age my Grandma told me that I was different than others and that made me more special. Well, I have obviously seen spirits that sort of thing but this is ENTIRELY different.
Let me start at the beginning and I will try my best to make this short. My Grandma was 82 when I was born and I lost her when I was 10. In those years she ALWAYS told me about our family. Her parents and so forth. She gave me a book and told me to put it up and keep it safe and said it was our Houston family tree book. At the age of 15 I started doing ancestry work on my family to go back further than what the book had. My 5th great granddad was born in County Tyrone, Northern Ireland. Go back two more generations and my 7th great granddad was born in Houston Scotland.
Fast forward to now. About 4 months or so ago I began to have a very strong pull to Ireland and Scotland. I've always said I wanted to go there for ancestry sake but nothing more than that. So 4 months ago that pull started and it's more than the I want to go there. It is deep in my soul. Well, a month ago there was this song that popped out of my head out of nowhere and I can't get the song to STOP! It is constant. Even while I am typing right now I hear it being sung! So, I thought to myself this morning that I would find out what the song was and then I'd listen to it then I could get it out of my head. I initially recognized the tune but didn't think anything else about it until this morning because I had reached my limit with it. After thinking hard I remembered where I heard the tune from. A show from 3 years ago and it was only played for 5 minutes in that show. Maybe less. When I found it I decided that since I had a moment of quiet I would listen to it. Well, I did just that and got really freaked out afterwards. The song starts out very soft and then about 18 seconds into it they begin to sing then around 1:33 into the song these drums merge with the singing.
When the singing began I was moving over what appeared to be water and the water was moving about and it was a little dark but the edges of my view was black. Just the middle was visible. Then all of a sudden I am looking at a young woman on a hillside and she's wearing a dress from the 15th Century. It was a dark green and she had a tartan on her like a cloak and she was looking out into field. Once the drums kicked in on the song I was the woman and I was somewhere else. (I saw stones in front of me and it was in a spiral pattern) as the drums were playing I bent over with my arms out in front of me and I saw I wasn't alone and there were other women doing the same thing and they were wearing white dresses. Once the song ended I opened my eyes and was home. I decided to see if I could find the place. The tartan the woman was wearing had a brooch type clasp and by the details on the brooch I could tell she was in Scotland. So I took that information and put it with the other details and discovered that the place was the Stone circle beneath Castle Ewen at Fairy Glen on the Isle of Skye. Can someone help me understand this? This constant pull to go there on my soul and the music and experiencing what I did during the song. The feelings I am having that I mentioned before is consuming me. It's getting to the point of anxiety sometimes throughout the day because I feel like I need to get there now. I appreciate you reading and any help that can be given! Thank you!
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I'm another that can identify with your fascination with your Scottish heritage. I became interested in my family history, particularly with my Scottish roots, at the age of seven. I was obsessed with going there! I was married to my husband for a number of years before I found his mother had traced their lineage back to the ancestor who "got on the boat" several hundred years ago. Ironically, his "ancestral home" (Atholl) is now about 45 minutes from my "ancestral home" and we have found family ties. After waiting over 40 years, we finally made the trip. I assumed I had built it up unrealistically in my mind, would be disappointed, and that would be the end of it. NOPE! Scotland is incredible. Having said that, now let me be a wet blanket... There is a lot of mis-information about Scotland, Scottish history, customs, etc. So many movies, TV series, and novels fudge on the facts for the sake of entertainment. I'm not saying that your experience is not real. I don't know enough. Just be sure that the romanticism of Scotland isn't driving your experience. Also, do serious reading (big dull, dry books). I would recommend a book, appropriately titled "Scotland", by Magnus Magnusson. Almost 700 pages of Scottish History from 7000 BC to the present (and it's not too dull) . Also, there is a magazine called The Highlander that is a bit more entertaining, but still seems to be accurate. You seem to have your family history, so google and find your clan and join! 😊 The more you learn, the better you would be able to interpret what you are experiencing. Good luck!