The Fate Of A Beautiful Soul

Been some time since I have posted something here. But a heartbreaking incident happened a couple of months ago. I lost my mother after she battled with pancreatic cancer for over a couple of years. To see the amount of pain she went through, I almost wished her a painless death everyday. While God answered my prayers in part, the best aspect here was I got to spend a whole 3 months with my mum and she peacefully breathed her last in my lap.

I quit my job to stay with my mother and my wife took care of the kids. All of us lived together. Before I proceed to the story, a bit of philosophy to all the lovely souls here, please spend a lot of time with your parents. They become kids towards the last stages of life and crave for our attention. Please do not alienate them at any cost. After all, they put up with our tantrums when we were young and we should return the favor. Please. There is no point in regretting later.

Now, going back to the story, like I mentioned earlier, I spent 3 whole months with my mum. I caught up for all the lost time, only for her. She was very happy and I gladly did everything for her. We used to talk for hours together and my mum would go on and on about everything that has happened in our life ever since I was born. During one such day, she felt emotional and told me how I used to cry non stop as a kid asking for my dad (my dad passed away when I was young). Then she paused. Looked skywards and said "only if he had listened to me". That shook me off balance. And I asked her what happened. She hesitated and told me that she had kept this a secret all through her life.

Story from my mum on the first day of our discussion -

My mom and dad lived a very short happy life together. I am the result of their happiness. As per my mom, dad always made fun of my mum for believing in paranormal and her reading through tarot cards. I cannot blame my dad, because as far as I know, he is a very religious person and believed that fate is to be faced than predicted. My dad has always been a busy person at work and used to work long hours. My mum could feel my dad being depressed, but when checked with him he refuted the claim and said he was fine. After her tarot readings, my mum asked my dad if he has been disturbed by anything. My dad refused to answer and said he does not want to discuss it. Then one fine day, my dad opened up, saying he senses death soon. He felt that he is going to leave his family soon. My mum comforted him saying everything is going to be alright. The next day when she woke up, mum noticed that dad was still sleeping. She has never seen him like that as dad used to leave for work early every day. Mum let him sleep for some more time and by the time dad woke up, he was very late for work. After his shower, mum asked him why he woke up late to check on him if he was feeling alright. Dad mentioned that he had a dream as if he was burning to death with people watching and not able to help him, and that left him very disturbed. Mum, being herself, took her tarot card kit, did her reading and told him not to leave for work in the morning as the signs are not in favor towards his health. Dad refused to listen and left for work. He never returned.

He met with an accident when a young driver jumped a STOP sign and hit my dad's car from the left side. Dad's car was crushed between a sidewall and the other car and was burned alive as he was stuck.

Mum told this story and looked at me without shedding a tear. She said "I did not tell you this story because I never wanted you to feel bad about your dad. Your dad was a great man and so are you. He would be proud that I brought you up as a gentleman". I was uncontrollable. I fell on my mother's foot and was crying. What a strong woman she was. The amount of pain, the young lady went through 35 years back was unimaginable. She never married again, because of the fear of me not getting enough attention. She is the angel of my life.

Love you, ma!

After a couple of days went by, I asked my mom. So, where did dad get this feeling all of a sudden? Why was he scared and depressed? How would someone get that feeling for no reason?

Mum looked a bit anxious when I asked her these questions. She said dad had a very tough childhood and was deviating from my question. I stopped her and asked her sternly. WHAT HAPPENED?

Complete story on day two -

Then she opened up. Dad is a very religious person. He always believed that there is an energy watching over us and that will guide us. And that was the reason he never believed in tarot predictions as fate will find its own way to reach you.

A month and a half before his death, dad was coming back from work on a rainy night. It was quite late in the night and he saw a lady standing near an overpass. It was quite late for someone to be standing there so he stopped and asked her if she needs to be dropped somewhere. Dad asked her if he needs to call someone, she said she is lost after her walk and would like to get dropped at the hospital closeby. Dad took her in and dropped her at the hospital. During the drive to the hospital, she had mentioned to dad that she has had a very rough childhood and she ended up here because of her parents as they used to abuse her. She said her parents died of drug overdose and she was left with nothing. Since my dad had a rough childhood too, he empathized with her and said he will come and meet her often with his family and she will not feel alienated.

Dad went home and narrated the ordeal to my mother and both of them decided to go check on the girl over the weekend. The next weekend, when they went to the hospital to check on her, they found out that the girl had died 3 weeks earlier by electrocuting herself. Dad was shocked as he met the girl a few days earlier. A confused dad, walked back with my mum to the car and out of the facility. On the way back, dad stopped near the overpass and told mum this is where he met the girl a couple of days back and was just getting extremely paranoid. Mum was trying to understand the situation, when, he turned back to my mum who was near the car door and was frozen for a few seconds. My mom was puzzled. When asked, he said that he saw the girl right next to my mum and then she disappeared. My mom felt very worried for my dad and never left him alone for the next few days.

Dad was never the same after this incident. He used to wake up suddenly from the sleep sweating and gasping for breath. He said the girl follows him everywhere. My mum felt that dad has attracted an entity and whenever mum tried to help him, dad never cooperated. After many failed attempts to convince my dad, mum gave up and started praying for my dad's health. And everytime she did that, she said, she will never be able to complete the prayers as there will be some distraction.

Mum felt dad was attracting more negative energy with his behavior and the failed prayer attempts were of no help as well. Before she could figure out a way to help dad, he passed away.

I felt so heavy that day. I don't know what to comprehend. My mom cried as well, so I did not bother her with more questions. The only thing she said was, "I have helped so many people in these situations, but I couldn't help your dad".

I have more questions than normal. The reason being, why would a spirit randomly follow someone and disturb their peace. My dad meant no harm to the girl or the spirit, he just stopped and helped like any person would. So is that seen as a sign of acceptance to let the spirit follow you? Maybe dad's accident was just coincidental, but why should he meet such a fate after being so sincere his whole life.

Life can be cruel sometimes. All I infer is, Dad was right. You can predict anything but you need to face your fate, be it good or bad. And his fate, was to meet his end in a fatal accident.

P.S - I will definitely reply to the comments but with some delay as I will be shifting to a new place next week!