My Cat Toffee

I have never experienced any supernatural things in my life before.

My Cat, Toffee, died on the 17th April 2010, she had to be put down. I found her outside a shopping mall; she was a stray. I felt sorry for her so I took her home - thinking I could take her to an Animal Shelter the next day. A few days later, I realized she wasn't normal. She was always sleeping and had no appetite... After I took her to the vet, I found out she had some type of Hernia and her blood test results were abnormal. The vet gave me antibiotics for a week - and she became much more alive and playful. After a week however, she started being ill again - so this time I took her to another Vet and they did an X-ray. They found out she had a collapsed lung, 2 types of Hernia, and FIP. FIP (Feline infectious peritonitis) is a fatal feline disease that isn't curable. So basically, I had no choice but to put her down. Even if they operated on her, it would be unlikely that she would survive because of FIP.

I've grown up with cats all my life... But I have never been so attached to one in this way before. We were so close and she always relied on me. When she died, I became so depressed. I've never experienced a "Family Death" before, so it shocked me. I started praying everyday, hoping she was okay and understood why I had to put her to sleep. Basically, I was desperate to "believe" that there was an afterlife, and not just a shallow view of her passing away.

Three days after her death, at around 4:30 am, I woke up to go to the bathroom. As I got back into bed, I felt something jump onto my quilt and walk a few steps. (It was her normal everyday routine) I sat up straight away but I didn't see anything. I was so shocked and surprised and I kept thinking to myself that it WAS her coming to visit me - I couldn't fall back to sleep after that. A few hours later, around 6 am, I was still lying in my bed - I started hearing scratching noises coming from my bathroom. (She used to sleep there) That noise was the exact same noise as what she used to do after she ate. I used to have newspapers under her food bowl and after she finished eating, she would "scratch" the paper and try and cover her bowl... I heard the noise 3 - 4 times. It was so real.

The next night, I woke up again around 5am - and this time I heard her "using the litter tray". I don't have any of her belongings in my bathroom anymore... There is no paper, or litter tray, food etc.

On the third night, I didn't experience anything until I woke up. I have a soft toy frog collection on some shelves. A few of them had been "knocked" off; I guess in the middle of the night. When my mum came into the room to wake me up, she too heard the "scratching" noise of the newspaper.

Sometimes I feel like I'm going nuts - as if I'm trying to believe it's her. I really don't know... I always pray at night now and wish she's safe and happy. I have a small box next to my bed with all her toys and pictures.

I wasn't a religious type of person. I always go through the scientific explanations first, but honestly, I can't find the answer...

Do you think it's her?