Countless Times

My name is Akela, I'm currently 22 years old. I can remember the first time I had felt someone watching me who wasn't even there. I was about 12 years old and in foster care. I was living in Scottsdale, Az at the time.

It was my bed time and I had to sleep in a room by myself. I was always scared when I slept alone. I always felt like someone was there wanting to grab me and harm me. I use to pray when I would feel this way, or even sing to try to comfort myself. But this one night felt different to me, I could feel someone in the corner of my room, watching me. My room was well lit due to the fact that I was scared of the dark. But in this one corner I could see this shadowy figure like a void. I couldn't catch my breath; I would look up at the ceiling, thinking to myself that it wasn't real. But I would look back over to this corner and my shadowy figure had moved closer, I looked back up; shaking my head, denying it was even there. But still I could feel him next to me breathing on me. I cried, I tried to pray but the words wouldn't come to mind, or even come out of my mouth. Soon enough I felt this massive figure on top of me, holding me down by my shoulders. I was so scared. But I still kept on trying to pray, but this time I could think the words, "GOD PLEASE HELP ME!" Suddenly the shadowy figure was gone. All I could do was cry.

I went to school that next day and got on one of the computers, trying to find out what was going on with me. I thought I was crazy. But I found a few things that were somewhat helpful. Something called "Sleep paralysis". I thought it was the answer I was looking for. I didn't have any more problems after that for a good long while.

A few years had passed by I was 19 years old and living in Commerce,Tx. I was dating a guy who worked nights and would come and sleep over at my house during the day, so that we could spend some time together. On this one day, I was lying down with him, I had that same feeling come back to me, and I was being watched. I could feel my stomach turning. But I just laid there hoping that nothing would happen due to the fact that my boyfriend was here with me. But I was sadly mistaken. In broad day light, my shadowy figure was there watching us. I woke my boyfriend hoping that he could see him too. I was crying and shaking, he was confused on why I woke him, and all I could do was point and scream. He quickly turned around, what he saw made him jump, and grab me by the arm and run down the stairs, and out the front door, I could barely keep up with him. He asked me so many questions that I really didn't know the answers to. I thought it was just a dream when it happened the first time. But now I know I wasn't crazy, because he saw it too.

I ended up getting pregnant, and hadn't really had many problems. I've had my bad feelings, but no shadowy voids, but just very bad feelings. But now that I'm 22 years old I've been able to do more research, and now my thoughts are that I have Sleep paralysis, or I'm just crazy. If anyone has any information on if I'm crazy, or if it's real. Please let me know.

With much love, and prayer.

Akela