First of all, I've had this experience on and off for the past few months. Recently, I have been under a lot of stress with everything that's going on at work and my financial troubles. My boyfriend works 2 full time jobs just trying to get by and trying to get debt paid off. I hardly get to spend time with him at all and if I do he's sleeping because he hardly gets any sleep since he works 16+ hours a day. We hardly ever have any intimate time together and if we do, we don't have the privacy or a good place to do it considering we both live with our families. I cry sometimes from being so lonely because I miss him and I don't have many friends who I can go out and spend time with. All my good friends are out of the state or area and the others pretty much are busy with their lives who hardly talk to me.
At night I always feel a presence of somebody in the room with me. I can't tell if it's my guardian angel or if it's a total stranger passing by, but I know if somebody is there. I feel like sometimes the person can read my thoughts because when I'm feeling up to it, I would think about sex. Then, I would start feeling touching on my legs and then I would feel this energy going inside of me. You have one of those moods where you feel like you just need it... So I would allow this... Thing to have sex with me. It would feel so good and I never thought I would ever enjoy sex with a spirit before. I don't know if this person is evil because nothing bad has happened and it has not hurt me. I'm also assuming it's a male spirit because I've heard him talk to me in my dreams before. Sometimes I would ask him to hold me and I would feel his arms wrapped around me. I'm at the point where I'm enjoying this spirits' company. If I don't want sex, it won't force it, but if I think about it, it will give it to me. My boyfriend has no idea about this, and I don't want to tell him about the situation. Is this bad?
I'm aware of how incubus/succubus are because I have done a lot of research on paranormal stuff since I was in middle school. I've had a share of paranormal experiences in the past. This may seem like a bad and dangerous situation to be involved in, so any advice or opinions would help.