Ever since first grade, when my great-aunt Josephine died, I've felt like I'm being watched. I wish I could tell you this feeling goes away every now and then. Well, I'm sorry to say, it doesn't. I've lived and grown up in Fort Wayne.
My father said that he once played with a Ouija board as a kid with his brother and sister. It had sat in the back room of my grandmas room for years. I would sleep in that room when my mom and I went over on Friday's. The feeling grew stronger back there.
So far, this year in deaths hasn't been good. My Grandma died (dad's side), my dads best friend died, and a parishioner from my church died.
I might as well say I'm Catholic. I sense the dead's feelings as they come to me. I see them. Some of my most recent experiences follow.
My most recent experience happened yesterday.
I couldn't sleep, and it was at least five in the morning. And I am one to always fall asleep in a snap, whether I'm tired or not. I was thinking about stuff, and I was in that moment where your 50/50, your half awake and half asleep.
I woke up to someone yelling my name. I looked up, and was startled to see my grandma looking down at me, she was smiling. She had color, she wasn't how the movies say ghosts are. She had her curly dyed-blond hair that was on the top of her head. Her favorite night gown was on. She began to scare me by talking to me.
"Grace?" She began.
"G-grandma?"
"Child, I love you." With that, she vanished. I was scared senseless.
The night before, I had seen my grandpa. The same thing had happened, except out conversation was longer.
"Grace..."
"Grandpa?"
"Sorry, I never met you, your beautiful."
"Thanks, I love you..."
"Love you too."
And just today, I saw a little girl, who must have been at least five.
She was in my living room. I was sitting watching T.V, and, all of a sudden, I turned my head to see her.
She had long brown hair, and silver-looking eyes, that were really grey. She was clutching a teddy bear, and she was wearing a white dress, and she said, "Mommy killed me."
Could someone please help me? I don't mind this, but, I just want to know what the heck is going on.
The trick is to train yourself to hang "in between" so that dreams don't interfere with the visit. Often, our bodies continue to fall asleep, including dreaming into
An obe or spirit walk lol This can be confusing to you when you wake up. Tell
Your brain a keyword to notify you when you're dreaming. I use a tricycle lol.
As soon as the rem state kicks in when I'm being visited I see a tricycle. This
Tells me to focus ONLY on the visitor and what they are showing or telling me.
This way I'm not confused about other things that might be just dreaming and not an actual experience. To be fully aware, your body has GOT to know when it's dreaming.
Just remember, most KNOW they're dead. Sometimes they just want to let YOU know they're dead. Most times they're just happy that they've found a live human to talk to. I've never had one ask me questions, either. They usually tell me answers.
Not any one of us knows solid answers about any of this. There are only theories, experiences to share, and the knowledge that there IS, IN FACT, an afterlife. How we perceive that afterlife varies from person to person, with very few commonalities. I remind everyone to also never become arrogant about the "gift", or whatever you want to call it, to never be arrogant. It may come or go at any time