One Night Incubus

Ever since I was about 11 years old I have been able to take control of my dreams and sometimes even leave my body altogether. Ever since then I have encountered entities both benign and not-so benign.

Last month, however, my experience was very different from what I have ever experienced. I live by myself in a small studio apartment that I have never felt to have anything negative within it. On this particular night, however, I half-woke from an unremarkable dream to find myself fighting something off. It seemed to want to get inside my body! I could not move and could scarcely breathe and finally I yelled "HELL NO!" at it in a furious effort to repel it.

At my yell not only did it back off, it laughed! (Not in a malicious way, but more in amusement.) This is the point when it starts sounding like a corny Twilight rip off. The entity, when attempting to enter my body (which it was doing by trying to enter through my abdomen) was nothing but a pure black nothingness; then when it laughed it's form changed to a very handsome man and then proceeded to seduce me. I have to admit I did not resist and participated willingly.

The next morning my body felt satisfied as if I had truly engaged in physical sex to climax. In fact, I remember the climax feeling as if light was shooting inside me.

I have never felt the entity again (nor do I particularly care to- I honestly felt like I was cheating on my significant other). However, I did feel puzzled. If this thing was an Incubus or a spirit, why would it show up randomly and then just disappear? Why would it even be interested in entering my body in the first place? Once I had fought its attempts at entering my body I did not feel his intentions to be malevolent and I have the suspicion that, had I resisted his sexual advances, he would have left me alone. Wouldn't an Incubus have tried to take me by force or been sadistic about it?

I have not been able to stop thinking about this incident since it happened. I honestly don't think my apartment is haunted and I wonder why this entity thought I'd be a good target in the first place.

Any insight would be welcome.