Ever since I was a little girl, I've been followed by a large black dog that looks rather similar to a wolf. If I'm going for a walk it will follow behind me, a couple of times it has actually walked beside me. No one else sees it but me, sometimes I think I'm going crazy. Every time I visit the graveyard, it's there.
I've never tried patting it, and I've never talked to it. Should I? It doesn't exactly scare me, but I'm not sure if I should be worried or not. I don't have any friends, so I get extremely lonely and depressed. It's kind of nice having it around, and when I don't see it I kind of miss it. It has bright yellow eyes and sometimes I'll see it from afar, just staring. Maybe it's my guardian? I've heard about guardians before but I never really believed it.
A couple of months ago I was having a panic attack, I felt like I was dying. Then I saw the black dog come out from the shadows of my room. I thought I was imagining it, but then it got extremely close to me and instead of feeling alarmed, I felt calm. I just lay there feeling tired and relaxed as it sat beside me, and I fell asleep.
If anyone could tell me what it is, or if it wants anything. Please let me know. Will it follow me for the rest of my life? What if I got a dog, would it hurt it?
I haven't been brought up with any kind of religion so I don't know what I believe in. I've read before that black dogs are evil or a sign of the "devil" and they are dangerous. But this creature hasn't harmed me in any way. What are your thoughts?
Thanks for reading.