Between Nightmares And Reality

At first I thought they were mere nightmares, until I could feel and see him. I rarely had beautiful dreams... But a month before my wedding, my nightmares started become more realistic and violent. It was a Wednesday night. I felt I opened my eyes and saw my curtains getting seeped in my window. I wanted to shout but I couldn't. I opened my mouth no sound came out. Then finally I woke up. It was 1.15 am. I tried calling my mother but I still couldn't say anything. I was so scared. Took up my phone and tried calling on home phone. I couldn't hear the phone ring. I started crying. I felt helpless. I also felt there was someone in my room. I called up my fiance. Luckily he picked up my call. I got back my voice. I asked him to call up my mother immediately. I was scared. A minute later the home phone rang. Mom answered and came to check on me.

My mother told me to sleep in her room. My brother called my mother too. We went to check on him too. He told my mother there was someone in his room too. Actually he had been seeing people in his room or anywhere since he was a kid. Anyway, we went to sleep in my parents room.

The next few days nothing happened. On Wednesday again, I had another nightmare. I saw a man sitting head bent on a chair. I went near and asked him what happened. He told me there was someone sitting on his head. I told him there was nothing. I asked me to touch it. When I touched that man I was sort of electrified. He started laughing and I woke up again. This time I couldn't move, I was as if paralysed. I couldn't shout. It was 1.15 am. I forced my mind to think of my gods, ganpati and shivji. I fought to free myself. My mother opened the door and all I could do was cry.

Next Wednesday, I had another nightmare. I dreamed someone wanted to harm me more. I could see a man in my dream. I decided to fight back. I was going to get married next week. I wanted to be free. I sat in the padmaassan pose (lotus pose) and tried to meditate and say om namaha shivaye... After a few chants my eyes opened. It was 1.15 pm. I was still dreaming, but what scared me the most was that I was sitting in the same way like I did in the nightmare. I called up my fiance and told him what happened. He told me to put on the hanumaan chalissa and to go to sleep.

The last Wednesday before my wedding I was scared to sleep in my room. We had a room which had two beds. I shared a bed with my niece aged 6 and my parents shared the other bed. I know I wasn't dreaming, and that I was wide awake. I saw a dark figure or shadow... I couldn't differentiate. He... (for some unknown reason I knew it was a man) was staring at me. I was again paralysed on bed. I tried shouting but couldn't. I tried waking up my niece... I tried moving my hand but ended planting my nails in my niece's arm. I tried shaking the bed. Suddenly, I don't know how but he moved really fast, he was saying something in my hear. I know he said something but all I could hear was some kind of whistling. And he disappeared. Mother woke up and my niece stared crying. She was bleeding on the arm.

My mother told me not to worry because after marriage everything will be okay (she thought changing homes would stop my nightmares). But she is wrong. He followed me.

I just discovered this site. I wanted to share and get some answers. I have so much more to say.