Many people don't understand me at all. The thought of even posting this makes me somewhat go crazy, but I need to know if I'm alone or not. There have been times in my life where things have happened. Maybe it's just because I want to be close to the ones I've lost, but it seems to be way more than that. I just feel as if maybe I am losing my mind at times.
There have been encounters where I have seen people that have passed away that I was very close to. There have been times where I have said to myself, "Sarah, you're losing it!" But now, I look at myself and I see it as a gift.
My boyfriend of over two years now, lost his mother when he was only 2 weeks old. I have never met her, as I wasn't even around and he was quite young to even know her. Yes I've seen pictures but only when she was married to his dad.
There has been a time where I have felt the touch of someone having their hand on my shoulder and not anyone being there. There have also been times where I've seen the people and then wake up. I don't really understand why I am getting these. And I really want to know if I am alone or not.
Sometimes people just think it's all in my head, but I want to know... Is it?
Please, please help me out. This started in 2003, and it's now 2012. A lot of my friends keep telling me, "It's a demon trying to lead you away from your faith," but truthfully I don't feel it's harming me.
I just want to understand it! I hate it where I feel I can't even describe to people how scared it makes me feel just because I feel alone in it.
No one seems to understand. Please help!