Tonight, as usual, I was having trouble sleeping. Mainly because most of my thoughts are morbid, and stressful. This morning, since I was already up, I decided to get on my CPU around 4 am. While I was on it, I decided to get something out the frig.
When I walked into the kitchen, I heard breathing. I stopped my breathing, just to see if I was going crazy. I breathed harder, and it seemed to breath harder. Frightened, I ran away back into sun room to turn off the computer. I then ran into the living room to turn on the hall light because I was just so scared.
Me and my friend once played this game where we turned the lights on and off. Every time I turned the light back on, a white face would appear with a hand stretching out. My friend tried it, and nothing happened. Then when we both did it, it happened. I'm straight up atheist, but this really has been creeping me out.
Sometimes I can hear it laughing at some of the things I do. My mom said when I was born, the whole family felt as if something weird was happening. This is just plain old annoying because I'm the only one it'll do things like this too.
I remember my mom telling me, "They can't touch you" because she remembers having this as a child as well. She said she also used to mess around with Satanism and people that do that sort of thing. But she said for her it went away when she was around 25.
Before, I used to have an imaginary friend that followed me around. He went wherever I went, but one day I lost him. It was as if he just stopped following. He just gave me a frown. I have to say, things have been getting a lot worse since then.
I don't believe in curses, but I do believe in saturating your well-being in negativity so much that you feel you are cursed. I think your pre-concieved notions of the paranormal - through your mothers dabbling in Satanism, to the aura surrounding your birth - may be interfering with your health and well being. In terms of Satanism, there are many forms, some of which are misunderstood for being pure evil, sacrificial etc. When they really are just a form of self-worship.
Let go of the negativity that you've thought has been linked with you and your family. You are your own person, and whatever actions or feelings your mother had when you were born or after, have nothing to do with the person you can be today. If there are truly negative spirits following you, tell them to leave you alone, loud and firm. And stop surrounding yourself with negativity. You don't have to believe in God to surround yourself with beauty and positivity.
I truly wish you well.