Always Afraid

Go to a monk monastery see if dat helps I mean days what I'd do if I was chu

Hi alina_nefer,

I feel that you should stick to what works. Having been to see a priest at a church which kept whatever was bothering you away for a while in Romania, you should also find a pastor or priest in the UK (shouldn't be too hard!) to help you. I believe if you accept Christ, then whatever bothering you will leave you alone.

"You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world." 1 John 4:4 New International Version (NIV)

thank you everyone for the nice words and advices, I will follow them! [at] twiggly I will be more then pleased to speak to someone about my problems. My e-mail is alina_s19 [at] yahoo.com. And please if anyone has the same problems like me I am more then eager to receive more advices, if there is a way to conquer my fear.

Thank you everyone! ❤

Hi, your story touched me and makes my heart reach out to you. I am so sorry that you must live with this great fear and feel disgusted at the cruel forces that enjoy plaguing you! This is unnecessary. I don't understand why these situations like yours happen; but I believe there is a good power much greater than this evil one bothering you... A power of good far stronger than this evil power, and able to eradicate this crippling fear, real and strong tho' it may be.
I just want to extend my best wishes to you in your struggle with this! I am so sorry! Next time it happens, please know that there is someone out there who is praying for you, (you have my promise that I will pray) that this evil will leave you alone and in peace. If you ever wish to visit or email or contact me, just let me know here:).
I used to live with a terrible fear also, and a few small strange things did happen to me, as well, although not nearly as dramatic as what you are experiencing.
I wish you all of the best and love you, though I have never met you!

I use natural stones for protection from spirits. Try keeping black tourmaline and some smoky quartz in your pocket. It will protect your from energy attacks from the living and the spirits on the other side.

I hope this is helpful!

Thank you for giving me your cleansing method, I will surely use it. I really don't know about my great-great mother having dementia. I used to work at a care center for elderly people with dementia. I don't think she had it, but you never know how people react when they are about to die. Even at the care center I knew when someone is about to die, I could feel it probably 3-4 days before someone died.
About my 'gift', I really don't know what to say and how to get rid of the fear. Actually 2 years ago, I bought a second hand lamp from a man... He just looked at me and said...,,ohhhh you are like me, I can see your aura, let go of your fear and you can do great things,, I just freaked out and told nobody about it. I really don't know why this is happening to me. How do I get read of the fear if strange things are happening to me and I can't explain them...that's why I am afraid, plus... I can't speak with anyone about it...
And that blessing in disguise... About my boyfriend... He is my husband now...:) and he is the only one who understands me... I will come back with my other stories... Take care and blessings from Romania

Welcome to YGS.

Alina_nefer: I'm sorry for your loss. Not meaning to pry in your personal life and you do not have to answer to my following question but, what was the mental state of your G-Grandmother at the time of her passing? Are you aware of her having the ability of foreseeing the future or was she suffering from dementia?

This is just my opinion, but it is important to establish if her mind was working properly and she actually was aware of what she told you or if all this was only in her imagination and you felt compelled to relate any misfortune and/or unexplained event to her last words. (My own Grandmother had some startling ideas in the last months before her death, at some point she was convinced that the family cat was in love with one of my cousins!)

Since you'd already moved, I guess it is too late by now to ask the neighbors if they,too, were having problems with their light bulbs. As for you breaking up with your boyfriend well, perhaps it's a blessing in disguise. Let time decide.

If you have the 'gift' of sensitivity it is going to be difficult to deny it or to hide from it, perhaps you should start thinking about learning more about it and stop feeling afraid.

In the meanwhile you may want to try rook's cleansing method:

Recipe for a Home Cleansing/Shielding... (allow for two or 3 days to complete)

Day one: Open all curtains window and doors with screens installed, let fresh air and sunshine into the home. Have all closets, cabinets and other 'dark spaces' open so that as much natural light as possible can enter those spaces. After 2-3 hours take a broom and 'sweep' out each room (this is symbolic and you do not have to really sweep) focus your thoughts on sweeping (pushing) out all negative energies / entities /thoughts. Close home up after completing each room of your home... Please do not forget your garage if you have one. (Optional) Light incense (sandalwood or Dragons-blood works well for me) and let aroma fill the home, and/or play a tape that contains your favorite Church/Positive, Upbeat (songs that give you good thoughts) songs before you begin sweeping.

Day two (or three): Once again open all curtains, windows and doors. Take a White candle (Optional) to the center most point of the home, sit on the floor and place candle in front of you. Light the candle (visualize a white ball of light) and then focus on the flame... Visualize the flame (white light) filled with positive thoughts, energy. (Say a prayer at this time if you so desire... Ask for cleansing positive energy to fill the candles flame/white light). Hold this 'image' in your mind and then visualize the flame (light) slowly expanding outward, visualize it filling the room your in, every corner and 'dark space'. Continue to visualize it expanding...it's outer edges pushing away (burning away) any and all negative energies/entities out and away from each room in your home. Once you have visualized this flame (light) filling your entire home, picture it expanding to your property lines. Hold this image in your mind for a few moments then visualize 'anchoring' this flame (light) where you are sitting which is the center most point of your home. Once you have done this. Take a deep breath, relax a few moments and then blow out the candle. (If you didn't use a candle just let yourself relax a moment or two.) "

Now you can create a shield for yourself using the 'home shield' technique but instead of focusing on your home visualize the 'flame' simply surrounding you instead of your home... Best time to do this is after a nice shower using a rosemary scented soap (rosemary is good for purification and protection.)

Good luck!

Looking forwards to read more of your experiences.