Everyone dreams but not everyone remembers it, unless...
Mom came home one morning. I suppose she came from the market as she was carrying her eco bags. The TV was on when she arrived and I just turned it off and watch mom bring out the contents of her bags. In my mind, I was contemplating of whether I ate breakfast or not. Meanwhile, I can't wait for lunch to be served. Mom's cooking is incomparable.
I was about to ask her where the rest of the family are but then I just assumed it's the weekend. They'd probably still asleep. So, I turned the TV on once again while hungrily waiting for mom to finish cooking.
Usually when she's done cooking, she would let me know. I just realized she's already doing another chore. I must have been really into what I was watching. For some reason, I turned the TV off and just focused on mom ironing clothes.
I asked my mom of her plans since it's the weekend. I did not get any answers from her. She just looked at me outright. I then told her that I plan to get a haircut. I even asked her if I should re-dye my hair and whatever is left of my hair dye would be for her and offered to dye her hair after I'm done. After that, I went back to my favorite couch, turned the TV on and wondered why mom is extra quiet.
As I was switching from one channel to the other, I glanced at the area where mom's supposed to be but I didn't see her there.
Then...
"Nahirapan ako kanina..." ("I had a hard time earlier...")
The voice came from so near that I felt a gush of air tad my left ear. When I turned around, I was surprised to see that its mom and she strangely looked wishy-washy than usual. I assumed she means she had a hard time earlier in the market or doing the chores. Anyhow, I still asked her where she had a hard time.
"Nahirapan ako sa pag-akyat..." (I had a hard time climbing...") she uttered.
But we don't have a second floor. So I had to probe.
In a ghostly voice she replied...
"Sa hukay, kung saan n'yo ako inilibing. Ang lalim-lalim naman. Nahirapan ako..." (From the pit where you guys buried me. It's too deep. I had a hard time...")
I felt my head swell to its climax.
I realized she has been dead for five years and that I was actually dreaming or was it a nightmare?
And then I woke up, as if someone woke me up. I then checked my phone and grasped that it was actually a weekday and I am one-hour late from work. Still terrified, I rushed to the door and as I opened it, the other door just outside mine almost simultaneously opened as well. It was my sister. We gaze into each other with a shudder and then I uttered,
"Napanaginipan ko si nanay!" ("I dreamt of mom!")
My sister, stunned with what I just said,
"Tinawag ako ni nanay!" (Mom called my name!")
We stared at each other for quite a while.
That morning was Wednesday, June 3, 2015 - Mom's 65th birthday.
Hopefully I can share more stories. Mostly in my dreams. Let me know your thoughts as well. Thanks.
I had another dream of her. This time my other siblings were there, including the eldest one who died of leukemia. Almost the same - mom doing her regular activities except I know that she's dead and I keep trying to tell my sisters how come mom's with us, she's dead. Then I had to tell mom in front of everyone (in the dream) that she's dead and she should just rest in peace. Upon her realizing that, she like decayed but was able to tell us that the pit were we buried her was so deep and she had a hard time climbing up. In the dream, my sisters blamed me for giving mom a hard time saying it was my fault she was buried so deep. Then in the dream we had to set another funeral for mom and made sure she's buried well. Upon waking up, I realized that my eldest sister who was also in the dream who was there during the entire time has also passed away, actually two years prior to mom's death. I really am uncertain with what could be the message for all of these. Meanwhile, thank you for your comment. It inspired me to write more and better. See you around!