I am a 29 year old male and the past few years I have had some strange experiences when I go to sleep. I had unexplainable things happen to me since I was about 7 years old. Sometimes I have really great experiences and other times downright fearful. About 3-4 times a month or more or less... I am prone to feeling like something is in my room and trying to interact with me. I've never seen it until tonight... Its 12:25am about 40 minutes after my experience and I tried to read online about what I saw to see if there was anything about it.
Here I am.
Now sometimes I when I feel something is in my room or around I can never see it. I just get a malevolent feeling as if something is there to try to do harm to my being in some way. It feels as if it's pushing into me and I fight very hard to awaken... And I am filled with a feeling of fear. At times I often find it hard to fall back asleep and it may occur 2-3 more times as I try to fall asleep... When this happens I will try to sleep with the light on... But to no avail... It either will stop on its own or not... I have even had this occur during the daytime hours of the morning. Time of day does not matter nor amount of light. This happens to me quite frequently since I was a kid. Sometimes even what's classified as night terrors occurs in me... Where I have intense fear and scream and have an episode where I have no recollection of an experience... Just a remembrance of intense fear.
As of lately... Like the last year or so... I have had GOOD experiences similar but more intense than this. It sometimes feels as if something GREAT... I describe it as EUPHORIA... Not fear is trying to take a hold of me. Often at times this feeling gets SO intense that I don't want to wake up... But I have to because I can't stand it... Its gets more and more intense the longer it lasts... It's almost like falling down a rollercoaster... In terms of the butterfly feeling in the stomach but way more euphoric... At first it didn't last long... But I could hold the feeling... The good feeling in me longer and longer... As it happened more frequently... I would know I was asleep at least somewhat at the time... But I'm not in deep sleep... This occurs about 20-30 minutes after I first try to fall asleep... Now as I got better at holding this good feeling in me... I would start to feel energy radiating from my hands and arms... Vibration if you will... It feels very powerful... Like I could shoot lighting or move mountains with my hands... Well tonight I got that feeling and I was able to open my eyes while experiencing this... I saw waves around my hands and as I breathed it went past the waves it looked like smoke... A stream of it billowing out from my mouth... Like mist... And it looked like heat waves from my hands... Like how heat bends light waves... And I was able to see my mirror across from my bed and I saw a dark figure in my room... Couldn't see the face... But it was hooded. This led to intense fear... I mean I could see my TV on... My hands shaking and vibrating before this, waves and smoke, mist everything... Then the figure in my mirror... Then I got scared and tried to awaken or snap out o it... Whatever you want to say... I'm partially crying writing this... This isn't a dream this is an EXPERIENCE
I can recall vividly an accurately and it fits the MO of everything strange that happens to me at night... I know it's not a ghost in my house... This happens TO ME... In lots of places I have slept... But this is the first time I have seen the figure... I know I'm not crazy... I'm very in control of myself and my life... But I feel when I am asleep maybe I am more vulnerable or able to be influenced somehow by something... I would love some input because the other stuff I can dismiss as sleep paralysis or brainwave crap that happens in the first 30 minutes of sleep... But now it just got a whole lot real... My eyes were open this time I witnessed it all...
Also the frequency of this now after seeing the dark figure is getting me freaked... I mean this would be a once a week thing at most... I'm getting it multiple times a day now. I also took a nap this afternoon and I had got the good feeling this afternoon but the good feeling now is switching into me waking up feeling like something is watching me like its getting mixed now... It starts good but its a mixed feeling now. I awake and my eyes fix to an area in the room where I feel this "shadowdude" should be as angelfeathers calls it. It happened a few times but was tolerable during my nap enough so that I didn't grab the beads and just kind of woke up the last time trying to sleep and said screw the nap... I'm about to go to bed tonight and I'm just going to grab the beads when I sleep for now on... I'm not going to take chances and I'm going to say prayers before I sleep... My brazilian girlfriend tells me to pray... And I think that should solve a lot of it. I still welcome the good feeling though... It feels extraordinary and is better than any drug high could ever produce. I don't want that to stop.
Angelfeathers if this is astral projection and its the reason why the "shadowdude" as you say came then it might make some sense... I would say that night was the most longest and controlled I have held that good feeling in all my 29 years... And I was able to open my eyes and stay in the state... A total first time for that as well... And I only saw the figure in my mirror... I didn't see him in the room... So weird... I tear up thinking of it... This experience and feedback confirms a lot about what I have always felt to be on the tip of my tongue and you all have helped me alot... Thank you so much for the feedback. ❤