I'm not sure if this would fall under the category of sleep paralysis or other such diagnoses, because though all of the following incidents have happened while I was in bed, they don't match the descriptions of any other accounts I've read, nor did they happen when I was just waking or falling asleep. But I suppose I should just say what happened.
Probably the first time something strange happened, I was 12. I was up very late, past midnight for sure, which didn't bother me, as I've had insomnia problems my whole life. But for some reason, that night, I was totally scared. Why? I still don't know. I just know that I'd felt a creeping, slowly increasing fear that entire night, since I'd gotten into bed.
I was trying to calm down by reading, all the while telling myself there was nothing to be afraid of, there wasn't even a reason to be afraid at that moment in time. What was really odd about that was, usually I'm very good at reasoning with myself. Yet though I knew there was absolutely no rational reason for me to feel at all different, it was almost like someone else's voice was rebutting everything I was thinking about being perfectly safe. At around 2:30 AM, the fear increased, a lot. I felt like I couldn't even have my head out of the covers anymore, like if I left any part of myself outside my blankets, I'd be dragged away into hell, or something of the sort. I dived under my covers.
This is where it gets even stranger; how I'd said before it was like someone's voice was telling me I wasn't safe, being afraid, and that someone else's voice was saying terrible things would happen? That voice turned more and more audible, and getting more and more afraid until it dissolved into just screaming, so loud that it was all I could hear. I couldn't tell you the gender of the voice. It sounded both like someone shrieking in terror, and like an extremely strong wind, which I also felt, from somewhere north of my head, blowing down so strong I couldn't even open my eyes. At the same time, I felt as if I were falling from my middle, like a vortex had formed around my stomach and was sucking me downward. I could barely breathe; I was hyperventilating out of fear that now felt entirely my own.
Abruptly, after what felt like forever but was most likely only a few minutes, it stopped. I kept my eyes closed shut, and somehow managed to fall asleep.
I'm 17 now, and I've been having instances like that since then, with minor deviations.
Once I also heard voices talking, right after the wind stopped. One was my own voice, and another that I didn't recognize, saying how funny the way I reacted was. Though I looked directly at where the voices came from, which was right above my head, there was nothing there.
Another time, I did manage to open my eyes against the wind. It looked like the very reality of my room was blowing away in it, everything was blurred in the direction the wind was blowing, but nothing was actually being blown away. Another time I opened my eyes, I saw what looked like a very obese woman with long red hair, melting into the wind. But she didn't look quite human- I couldn't tell if she was old or young, she was covered in giant warts and had yellow eyes. The edges of her were flickering like she was made out of fire. It looked like she was the one screaming. I never tried to open my eyes again, after seeing her.
I really have no idea what it could be; some have said a really bad case of hypnagogia, or accidental astral projection gone wrong.
If you have any ideas what it is or what I can do to make it stop, please leave a comment!
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