When I was fifteen years old, I suffered an eating disorder and was terrorized by sleep paralysis. I experienced this while laying in any position and it usually happened twice a month or more depending on my stress level. I would feel like I was being forced into the bed not by a being but by a wind tunnel fan that I could feel and hear. I could see and feel my hair flapping and I could hear the roaring of the fan. Shortly after I recovered it all stopped suddenly and I never had it happen again until a year ago.
This time around I was under pressure with school and a relationship but nothing compared to the issues I had had during the eating disorder. It started out one month I would have an episode of sleep paralysis but this time there was no sound and no physical feelings (aside from the pressure and lack of bodily movement). I felt like something was in the room with me before, during, and after an "attack." The following weeks after this it kept coming back more and more frequently, all maintaining the same sensations (or lack thereof).
Eventually it got to the point where I would feel as if something was following me just out of eyesight, no longer did this "thing" stay in my room. I had taken up night classes and would get out around 9:30pm. As I walked around at night waiting for my ride I could feel that something was watching me as I walked. I'd turn to look and nothing was there that I could see, but I felt like it was out there watching me look for it. This feeling was constant and the sleep paralysis got worse and worse. I must say that in the very beginning I did not feel threatened at all. When more "activity" happened and when the sleep paralysis became more and more frequent the more dangerous it felt.
Whatever was following me would feel like it was there outside at night and in my room both day and night. The most endangered I felt was the last "episode" of sleep paralysis I had experienced that felt the way this one did.
I sleep with my laptop on the floor and it has a glowing blue light that flashes in and out every 3 seconds or so. I am VERY familiar with the shadows that appear on my wall due to this light. This night I felt its presence like there was really someone in the room. I was turned to my left to sleep on my left side, and behind me I could feel it staring at the back of my head. So, I turn around to my right side and look at my wall. A shadow produced on my wall moved quickly and was small. I couldn't make out the exact look of it being tired and it moving quickly, but it did not belong at all. I then start to keep this thing looking at the back of my head again. I closed my eyes and this thing moved and sat in front of me staring holes in my eye lids. I opened my eyes and I see an image imprinted on my eyes. (This was not a solid visual; its image appeared to me like white writing on a black background would if you stared at it too long)
This entity; I have no clue what it is but it looks to me like some sort of Imp. The face was very round and wrinkled and grinning at me with the most mischievous grin ever, like it knew I was annoyed by it. Its forehead was like it was very angry or "evil." He appeared greenish blackish grey.
After that image goes away I lie on my back and close my eyes. I start to fall into this sleep paralysis and I KNEW that it was on me, though I could not see it, I was too scared to open my eyes. I had my arms crossed over my chest when this was started. I felt him shake me in a threatening way. I yelled at him (in my head) Get off me! Get off me! Get off me! And right after that he shook me while mocking my saying Get off me! Get off me! Get off me! In an angry raspy or throaty little voice. Then he let go and disappeared for the night.
The next day after class I felt him follow me again. This time when I went to my room instead of feeling him specifically (I grew rather used to what it felt like when this thing was around me) I felt something else, I don't know what though, and it only happened once. That night the elliptical in my room that has no power other than batteries turned on, mind you the batteries have been dead in it for quite sometime, and the area around it went drop dead cold while it was burning up in the rest of my room. I ran into my bathroom and lit up some sage and smudged myself and my room. After that I haven't had any problems.
I'm curious to know what it was though, no amount of research has helped at all, and I really would like to know with out digging whatever it was up again, because it did not seem happy at all. Thank you very much to anyone who read all of this, I know it's a lot, but I had to get all of it off my chest.
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