Who Follows Me?

My mother and grandmother said I was a spooky child and from before I could speak it appeared I could see things or people others couldn't. I'd sit bolt up in bed as a toddler and appear to be trance like.

One day around 5 years old I saw a woman who came into my bedroom and explained she missed my dad and to tell him she loved him. It turned out I perfectly described my dad's grandmother who had died shortly before I was born. I'd never seen a photo of her despite having been too young to 'imagine' such things.

As I grew up I used to show friends how I could make the porcelain masks ribbons move by asking them to and I thought it was entertaining to even prove my room was haunted by telling the cd player to turn off and on again, which it did as I said most of the time.

This was before I hit around puberty and realised this was scary stuff and not just something I'd made up. Not everyone's rooms were cold like mine. I'd always thought my room was haunted.

It seemed that I realised it was 'me' rather than my room. I didn't feel quite as comfortable in other houses feeling like I had company. I didn't know if it was 'my ghost' or that house.

I've had all sorts of strange encounters from tin cans being put in the bottom of a bin to jumping out and landing standing up, to being woken by a ghost looking identical to my sister on Christmas morning. Apparantly my grandmother who died before I was born looks like my sister. I'm assuming it was her, but because I was scared and asked her to leave. I saw her cowering in the corner days later looking frightened of me this time.

I moved houses in 2003 and I felt this house was haunted. I bought a Caravan; it feels haunted. When we visit hotels they feel haunted. Is it me or the places I'm visiting? When I ask them to go away they do but I then feel bad for not allowing them through.

My sister had a full term still born in 2003 this year. I've felt haunted by a young child around 7. I think it may be her but I'm too scared to let her through to me.

Its not just a young spirit. I'd say I feel different ones around 2-3 times a year and they're pretty persistant, despite my asking them to leave. Perhaps it's because they know I'm interested but too scared and they hope I'll not be scared this time?

Typing this I'm aware that the outside light kept flashing? Even though its switched off at the mains.

Who are all these spirits? Are they my family? Is it the houses spirits? I used to feel unique. As an adult I just feel spooked.