About 7 years ago, I have visions of my girlfriend's death. It all started when my first girl friend killed her. That's when the visions occurred right after the incident. It was a hard day for me. She died, because of me. I wasn't there for her that much.
Before this incident, we used to do everything together. Even our fist time making love was really special. Then it all change in an instant. I was getting from work and school and I had to move. She was the type of girl that comes everyday to school. One day she didn't come and I got worried. I left school early that day, because I knew something was wrong. I went to her house and saw medics and cops everywhere. Her parents where there, sobbing over their only daughter. The cops claimed she killed herself, because the suicide note gave it away. It says," She can never live her life like she used too". It also mentioned me, but it was vivid to everyone else. It said, "my darling you let me go". I knew she was right. It was a sad Christmas Eve indeed.
At night, everything I knew about my girlfriend being sweet was shattered. I was fast asleep and calmly snoring. Then in the darkness, there was this beast glaring at me. I thought it was the darkness, but it took form. The form of my girlfriend scared the living daylights out of me. I knew once a person kills him or her self they go straight to hell. I thought she was a demon when I saw this spirit. She told me straight up," I'm going to eat your flesh slowly, then I'll save your soul for my master."'
It had to be demon I thought. My girlfriend loved me; she would never say those awful things to me. I stood up and went through her. Running to the bathroom to splash cold water on my face. I thought it was a dream in my mind. I assumed it was, because when I came out from the bathroom everything was normal again. I keep telling myself these exact words in my head," is frig gin Christmas, can't they just haunt me in Halloween!"
Few moments later, I saw soft core porn the television to ease my fears. I had to see that stuff, cartoons wasn't available that night. An hour later I went to my bed almost forgot about the whole thing. I laid my self down, defrosting myself from my warm blanket, and saying a prayer in my head. Then I lay sideways and she was there, looking straight at me. She has black eyes and her tongue was out. She kissed me and said, "you're going to hell with me." "We are going to live down there for eternity, together", she also added. I cursed at her with an f-bomb and spit at her. She later got angry and threw me out of bed. They she spread her legs open, begging to have sex with her like we once did. I said firmly," go to hell". She said," C'mon try to stop me." I went to the bathroom, got a cup from there, poured it with water, and then I prayed over it. She knew what I was doing, begging me to stop. I told her, "I love you". When I poured it, instantly she disappeared.
Finally, I woke up in a cold sweat. It was a dream all along. It was an epic battle between good and evil. I was in a dream, inside another dream. I was half asleep again, but I saw my girlfriend again. This spirit was different from my dream, for this one was more at peace. She told me," I still love you." I love you too, "I told her."
About the visions I was having back then. It showed me how my girlfriend killed herself. I'm not going to type this information down; it's hardcore for this site to bear. All I can say is, she's not in hell or in heaven. Every Christmas eve, she says a big hello out of nowhere, but I must move on with my life. I've been moving on ever since and now she is finally at rest. Of course that's not the end of the story. The End.
It's normal for people to have dreams, especially after a traumatic experience, but to automatically chalk it up to a haunting or paranormal event is simply silly.
I think you have had a hard time of it (if it really happened) and you are disillusioning yourself into what really happened. People commit suicide all the time, for all sorts of various reasons, if this actually happened at all, I doubt she was murdered.
Then again, I doubt this entire story altogether. Remember people if it seems to outlandish or over the top, chances are it's fiction.