"Você pagará pelo que fez." (You will pay for what you did.) I heard a deep voice in my dream and woke up around 4am. I was begging for forgiveness the moment I woke up, but will then become conscious, and would wonder what really or who really did I talk or was with. I always forget what I have dreamt of but I remember that is the voice that always wakes me up and I feel that it is a linked dream... Somehow scary, somehow odd, somehow there are lots of fights and arguments.
"Heh... Was the dream in color?" my friend asked me.
I shook my head and answered, "Nah, I don't really remember, do you dream continuous dreams like a continuation of a video?" I asked my friend. She was very into dreams. Reading and her accuracy was not too bad, but don't misunderstand this because later this case is going to be a little weird.
"Is the whole dream in Portuguese?" my friend asked.
"Yes, I mean...maybe? I don't remember... Are you going to read my dream? I got very little details" I said in a way trying to stop my friend from talking about my dream.
"I feel that I can tell the meaning of the dream if you tell me more details!" my friend fussed around still trying to ask about the details of my dream.
Suddenly, I heard a voice from a distance "...jamais..." (Never ever... Or something like that) "O que?" (What?) I replied naturally. My friend stood there and looked at a direction, I looked the same direction and saw a shadow passed away. "Did the shadow speak?" I asked my friend.
"Eh? No... I mean... That just came out of you, right?" she replied.
I did not understand what happened, so I ignored that day and went out. I came back the evening and asked what really happened at that moment when both of us saw the "shadow".
"well, etto... That shadow I thought I saw it came out from your back" she answered as if she was not too sure about it.
"Do you know anything about that?" I asked.
"Remember the trip we went last week to Noboribetsu?" she asked.
Yes, we went to Noboribetsu to a place call the Jigoku-Dani, otherwise the Hell Valley. That place is not really what it sounded like or haunted, it is just a volcanic area full of hot springs and minerals, sulfuric gases and boiling hot water will still be seen around. Not too far away we saw a dead animal not sure what that was but it was helplessly dangling at a cliff (cliff? Or maybe it was a tall rock, not sure).
Why did I bring up this trip here? That's because my friend believes that animals could curse people when they are in spiritual form. A very "Japanese thought", because traditionally Japanese thinks that haunting and cursing are categorized as the same. Not going to explain too much because this may mislead the story.
"Yes, I remember at the Hell Valley, we saw an animal dead dangling on a cliff, does the shadow you saw look similar?" I asked in a way trying to to be both understanding and kind of skeptic.
"I think it's a bear, and you know, bear in Ainu Culture is..." she tries to tell me as if she is sure what really happened.
"You will need to be a little more scientific, see? I am not trying to say that you are wrong but we were not bear hunting and it is not logical if the bear to be haunting or cursing me" I said not letting her finish up her sentence.
"Ryuji, I know! But the shadow was huge and it is not a person, I saw it went out from your backside, it was shocking! If that was not a bear..." she said in a tone as if she was very heated up and stopped at the middle of her sentence.
"What happened?" I asked.
She pointed back because there was a eared shadow right behind me. I smiled and said to her "It's Aleshanee playing under the lamp" we both laughed.
From that day on after the shadow went out I did not dream of anything strange, and luckily nothing really bad happened. I am still kind of looking the answer for what that shadow really is and what the dreams really are about.
Do you consider this as a spiritual experience?
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My Ainu friend told me that sometimes in the past the Ainu used to keep a bear outside of their houses called Kotan. There is a tradition called the Bear God Calling Performance, which is a dance they do giving the spirits of the bears that had past away a peaceful time... Explained as like a dance that will keep them rest in peace. Forgotten spirits sometimes will be left over that is why they will need to do it quite often... Since I live in a place where the Ainus used to live their life, it might be some of the forgotten spirits? Not sure but since some other spirits might be chanting outside of my house forever perhaps that might explain why the forgotten spirit was gone at once. Like lack of energy or some would rather say absorbed by bigger beings Will this solve my case? 🤔