My Inseparable Lost Wife

I am from Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada. I had my beloved wife Ely for almost thirty years and we both shared our love and care throughout our marriage. When we first met, I already knew that she had congenital heart murmur. However, that was not to be concerned as she was still young and working. We always enjoy going anywhere together and living happily. In 2010, her brother passed away from heart failure. Since then, my wife had been depressed and her heart murmur developed into cardiomyopathy. She suffered cardial infarction and was lucky to survive. However, I had to take a very close look of her all these years with extreme care in and out of the hospital a lot. She was diagnosed with leaky tricuspid valve and advised to undergo a valve replacement surgery. She was almost put to death through the fault of the surgeon intra-operatively. Realizing that, legal litigation was initiated and it took over six years to resolve the claim. Since the mishap, my wife's condition worsened and I kept her company another six years with utmost care to walk her through to the end of her life in my hands.

It has now been two years since the death of my everlasting wife. I am still having her belongings with me at all times. I even moved closer to the cemetery that I can visit her everyday and I have never failed. I took a picture of her at the funeral home lying in the casket and I mounted in a frame and sleeping with her picture next to my pillow. I even made her a live size clay model with her favorite outfit standing in my study and a live clay model head from the picture of my wife in the casket and placed in front of the alter that I can be talking and feeding her everyday. I hardly left the house or communicate with people for over one year other than going to the cemetery. I am so much attached to my (living) wife because I know for sure that she is coming to see me very often in the night and walking around on my bed. She normally comes back around 5-6 am and at that time I generally wake up from my sleeping pill and feel the bump on my bed while she is walking around me.

I talked to my family members about the phenomenon but they concluded that this is all in my mind. I have been attempting to ask someone who can believe in ghost and agree that what I am doing is perfectly normal and that I am not psychotic.

I would also like any feedback from the readers if anyone can tell me how to contact my deceased wife or even see her in the night when she is visiting me. I know I will never let her go nor she would never let me leave her. Please give me the best advise!