It's been a while since I have been on this site but due to the latest encounters I have decided to come back in search for some advice.
As my previous story told I have had ghostly encounters dated back to before I could speak. However, things have started up again. Several changes in my life have occurred since my previous story. Due to the events amongst the people I cared about surrounding the suicide of my friend I decided it would be best for me to seek a change of environment. The emotional turmoil as well as the feeling guilt and hopelessness were getting to be quite a lot. I decided to move from Canada to Colombia SA. The first few days I was beginning to feel better about the entire situation, being surrounded by different people as well as a different environment was really helping me get through what still is a pretty rough time. However two weeks ago everything took a turn for the worse.
I have always been one to never ever doubt my gut feeling. I am highly intuitive, I have a sense for situations that most don't. Whether it is a sixth sense type of gift is something that I am still trying to figure out, but what I do know is that not following my intuition usually results in a bad outcome. In these past couple of weeks I have felt as if something has been blocking my intuition, the best way I can describe it is when you wear prescription glasses and they all of a sudden fog up and no matter how many times and how many different ways you try cleaning them the fog just won't go away and no matter how hard you try to see you just can't, everything is a blur. This wouldn't be much of a problem except I RELY on my intuition for EVERYTHING and I need it now more than ever. However, this is where I need your help. When the blocked feeling started the whispers of my name (mentioned in my last story) started up again, they have become so frequent that I can count on hearing them on a daily basis. Whoever or whatever it is won't leave me alone.
I have also been getting an awful feeling whenever I think of my friend, which is everyday. I feel like my energy is being drained, it leaves me feeling exhausted and emotionally unstable. I am probably one of the most positive people to walk this earth which is why this isn't normal for me. I feel as if there is something following me that just waits for my weakest point of the day to drain all of me.
This may be a long read but I appreciate any advice anyone may have. Thank you!
-I forgot to mention above, I have tried meditating and several other methods to try to get my intuition back. All I end up picking up is a sense of hostility. Not quite sure if this helps but it's something.
What is it you try to achieve with meditation? I'm just curious to know...