A Presence

During my pregnancy, I suffered a lot of lower back ache. Really chronic pain on my right side. I had stopped washing my hair whilst having a shower as I was loosing a lot of hair. So I would shower first, and then wash my hair bent over the bath. The minute the water would touch my hair I would feel someone's hands on my lower back, a couple of times that scared the living daylights out of me, I am surprised I did not give birth there and then, but I slowly got used to it, but they would gently rub the lower back and for a while the pain would go. I had this throughout my pregnancy.

After the birth, things got kind of scary, I would feel a presence around me and my son. I would see like white smoke float past, or hear noises coming from the temple. I would never leave the little one his own or with family.

Just a quick recap of the dream I had before I gave birth to my sons. I married into a Brahman Family. The house has a temple which is near the kitchen and facing towards the garden. Now the living area is massive and when you first walk in to the right there is a picture of the Goddess Mata - mother. The picture covers the whole of the wall. There is a sofa in front of the picture, and then a glass coffee table in the middle of the room.

Back to the story, I worshipped Mata, would keep the fasts on her day, clean the temple. I was 7 months pregnant when I had the first premonition. I was sitting on the sofa so my back was to the picture, I saw the motherly figure come out of the picture and stand in front of it. She used the coffee table as a barrier between me and the other household member, nobody could get past the coffee table, I then with her blessing gave birth to my son but he came out of my stomach. She stood in front me protecting me throughout the birth, and she placed the baby in my arms, the baby I saw in my arms, the looks, the skin color, the hair, was the baby I gave birth to. The same happened with my second child, exactly the same except this time my eldest son was the only one allowed to be next to me when I gave birth to my second son). The dream kept everyone away from me whilst I gave birth to both my sons, whether it was to also show I would be watched over I don't know.

A year and half later I had my second son. The presence of someone next to the three of us was strong, I was still seeing the smoke like mist floating past, I even saw the dog who passed away a month before I went into labor with my second one. I remember I was cooking and the smell of sandal wood and then I saw the dog. My mother-in-law who was standing next to me saw nothing.