I was 25 and had just moved back to my parent's house for a few months before starting a new job and relocating a couple of hours east. Within 3 weeks I lost my 30 year old cousin to a car accident and my grandma that I had not seen for over 12 years. You see we had moved out of my native country when I was 13 and had planned to fly back and visit my grandma often but we were not able to afford it.
My cousin was a very important individual in my life and my family and I were mourning her deeply when we found out my grandma passed. This was the first time I had lost someone close to me and so I was going through all the stages of dealing with a loss.
My younger brother had just moved out and I was sleeping in his bed just for a change of scenery I suppose. My beloved 3 year old dog that never left my side was also sleeping next to the bed on the floor. I had left the lights on half way as I did when I was sick, scared, or just nervous. The door to the bedroom was on my left and right in front of me was the window to the front yard. Right outside the window we had a big apple tree that my dad loved very much. Anyways, so I wake up around 1am as if I was awoken by something, however there was nothing! Same with my dog, as he all of a sudden woke up looking around him. No Growling or anything though... Which was puzzling to me since he was a nervous dog in nature and would growl and run away from his own shadow!
I then saw and heard an apple fall off the tree. Although that really doesn't hold any significance but for whatever reason, it is what I remember clearly. As I was lying on my back, I then saw a figure of light. This was bright yellow light, outline of a human body. It was transparent and walked in through the open doorway and came next to me. At that point I was completely paralyzed by either fear or shock. When I say fear, it was simply fear of unknown. By the way, I have no idea what my dog was doing at this point. The entity then whispered my name in my language, saying "My Nicole" and came to hold me and at that point I closed my eyes as I was overpowered by this great energy/feeling of LOVE.
I kept asking, "Who is this?" and I remember feeling these things: Love, mother, woman, power, so much love. I know this sound crazy, but it was too much for my human form to handle! Then I remember feeling this ball of energy and heat in my stomach and it started coming out of the palm of my hands, top of my head, bottom of my feet. Over and over again...
I remember feeling motherly love and kept thinking it must be my mom. Then I would rationalize it by remembering my mom was sleeping down the hall and it couldn't be her. I even called out to see if it was my cousin who had just passed or then I realized, maybe my grandma?
It then left me and I rolled to my side saying a prayer and asking god to never do that again as it scared the living beegeez out of me!
Well the next morning, over breakfast I told my mom and that is when my mom told me about how my grandma used to call me "my nicole" when she visited her a few years ago, and apparently on her death bed she had mentioned that she really wanted to see my dad and I before she passed. I know she must have visited him too down the hall that night! This experience has gotten me through a lot in my life. When I doubt my faith, afterlife, or belonging I remind myself of that night.
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