Re-occurring Dream 3

This is not written so well as I am very tired today. Last night I had the dream again and I am absolutely exhausted. Well, you have had two parts, only the second being more terrifying than the first for me.

Last night (18th August 2008) I kissed my partner goodnight and Inca has snoozed off in my little room on his bed. Last night was strange. I felt very sad, but at the same time afraid and aware of someone or something in the bedroom. I don't know why my thoughts were with my grand mother. I cried for about an hour. All this time the sadness turned to fear. I could feel this presence near me somewhere in the bedroom. At one point I thought about putting the radio on but I was exhausted. I actually believed because I was so tired I was feeling all these emotions. I kept hearing the chair moving. We have a computer in the bedroom with one of those swivel chairs. I kept hearing the chair make swivel, a little, like someone was sitting there. A voice inside kept telling me he was waiting for me. The last time I looked at the clock it was coming up to around 10. 30 pm. I did awake a few times to the sound of heavy breathing, I kept dismissing it all. I must have finally fallen asleep about 11:00 p.m.

The dream - Up until now, apart from one, when I have this dream it is always in one of the family homes. This one was not. It was in a bank or what appeared to be a bank. My eldest son is sitting on the computer trying to un-code something I am with my partner on a couch. The room was dark and huge. The walls were grey, a misty grey, it was almost like a palace. Me and my partner were messing around on the couch, play fighting intimately, we were laughing, joking. The guard walked in, dressed in a grey uniform, he told us we had to leave, the power was about to die in the building. It was when the guard walked in that I was overwhelmed with fear in my dream. It was him. I ran to my son and told him to get out, in fact I shouted to him to get out, I turned to my partner and told him to leave as well. I turned around and the guard was sitting on the desk. Strange he was sitting sort of crouched down. It was him, I had no where to run. He turned around and before I could do anything, I was wrapped in his arms, the clothes had turned black, I don't know how we were both on the floor. I was on top of him, he had a hold of me from the back, one arm was around my neck, and he used his other hand to try to stop me from shouting for help. I tried and tried to get out of his grip but could not, he is strong, powerful. I don't think I have ever been so scared, he was suffocating me. I managed to shout help three times, the third being very loud. It was at that point that my partner came running into the bedroom. He had to shake me out of this one. Inca even came running into the bedroom, she jumped on the bed and sat right next to me. My poor partner just held me, what else could he do.

After a glass of water, my partner tucked me back into bed, left the lamp on, and asked if I would be ok. I of course, said yes. Inca stayed on the bed with me. I think she waited until I had gone back to sleep before she snoozed of.

I do not know what this person wants from me, last night he waited and waited and again went for it.

Colour of clothes, he started with black then to white to grey back to black. I seriously don't have the energy to fight him off, it is becoming almost impossible, he seems to be grabbing me from behind.